Wings to fly – THE CHEMICAL LOCHA PHASE

Get your wings to fly !! Do it today.  Make that small beginning today itself since one is not sure whether the mood would be right for tomorrow and the ambience you are seeking would be available tomorrow.

It’s been a year of not writing/blogging.  I would say that I had forgotten to think what I love doing – I spoke to my inner self to understand what gave me the pleasure and happiness that I was even a year back.  I had created a self imposed vacuum around me and I was the only one to blame for it.  It was getting depressing lately since I didn’t know what was amiss these days (was it the h omefront, or was it the office or was it ME).  Was it the hormones or the chemical locha that you may say –  considering I am in the mid 40s.  Self policing gets on your nerves at this time, since one is not sure of what and how to do it right.

I thought about it and immediately related it to my mother, aunts, cousins who I am sure would have gone through this phase.  Then why did anyone not speak about it ? Or did they speak and no one understood? Really tough.  May be speaking about these was considered taboo those days.  I spoke to my amma and she responded that she actually didn’t remember whether any of those things really bothered her those days. Guess she didn’t have the time on her hands like me.  Ours was a typical middle class family comprising of me, my little sister my amma appa and at times my paati (my paternal grandmom) came to stay with us. 

It was a rented chawl apartment with just a room and a small kitchen.  My Dad worked for a small company and mom took tuitions to support him in the household. May be she didn’t have the time to think of too many mundane things that I consider important and those that really trouble the lot like me – the current generation.

Yaa so getting back to what I really want to say – Rejoice in the fact that YES you are good at something.  Try working on it.  Getting back to something after a sabbatical is definitely not all that easy especially in your mid forties, but if a little effort and interest goes into finding your passion, you will surely not find the CHEMICAL LOCHA period all that boring.  YES, there may be days when the hormones trouble you a bit more than the normal days, but there will always be a Rainbow making its way with both the rain drizzle and the sunshine smiling at you simultaneously.

So get your wings to fly – YOUR PARACHUTES.  If you don’t know what they are, think a bit. Get it right away and FLY.

The MID FORTIES DIVA

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p.s  I am loving it today that I did manage to scribble something and smiling at the fact that I could manage it. So can YOU!!