Tuesday, 18 August 2015

The Sequel - Gayatri stands cold and numb



Gayatri is all dressed and is really anxious - Why the hell has Avi called her.  What did he want to convey?  Was he in another relationship, What if he walked out of her life ? She had a kid to take care of.  Would he be introducing her to someone he was involved with or attracted to?  She did not even have a decent job. The flat – oh yes! The flat was in his name.  There was nothing to call her own, except for Avi and her little princess.  What an irony, her princess also was named after him – she was Ananya Avinash.  It reminded her of the dialogues of the movie:

Yahi toh kiya hai tum jaise mardon ne hum jaisi auraton ke saath ... kabhi kok mein hi maar dala toh kabhi pehda hote hi ... yeh kaisi ajeeb parampara hai tum logon ki ... sab kuch tumhare naam ka ... maang meri sindoor tumhare naam ka, gala mera mangalsutra tumhare naam ka, kalai meri chudiyan tumhare naam ki ... yahan tak ki kok meri, khoon mera, doodh mera aur bacha tumhare naam ka ... sab kuch tumhare naam ka ... phir yeh batao aakhir tumhare paas kya hai mere naam ka?

 
This is what men like you have done to women like me ... sometimes you kill us when we are in the womb and sometimes just after we are born ... what kind of tradition you guys have ... where everything is in your name ... the hair parting is mine but the vermilion powder is in your name, the neck is mine but the wedding necklace is in your name, the wrist is mine but the bangles are in your name ... infact even the womb, blood, milk all are mine but the child is in your name ... everything is in your name ... now tell me what do you have in my name?

All sort of negative things were flashing down her mind.  Did she make the right decision of agreeing to meet him, she just wanted to delay the entire process of what was going on at that point of time.  It made Gayatri so stressed that she started sweating and tears started dripping uncontrollably.

She walked down her flat literally dragging herself.  Avi was always punctual then and even now. She sat next to him and he drove in the car, seated next to him.  It felt as if he was a stranger and there was stone silence between them.  There was so much to talk even few years back - where did all that vanish.  It kept her wondering. She just looked out of the window and it took her back memory lane.  Avi didn’t have a car then.  They just walked for hours together, holding each other and it felt as if nothing could be more beautiful than those moments.  It was like time was so less and both of them had to reach their respective homes which were in opposite directions. They just wanted to “BE” with each other.

What an anti climax. Here they were sitting besides each other but having nothing to talk except looking at blank space.  From the corner of her eyes, she looked at him. He looked so handsome and smart in his crisp white shirt and navy blue trousers with the designer tie and of course his spectacles.  What an irony? She was seeing him everyday – day in and day out.  It was like – so near but yet so far.  Thinking to herself “ He looks so handsome, is he the same Avi I see everyday”.  What was so different today? 

It felt like yesteryears when they sat at a restaurant and spoke for hours together, looked into each other’s eyes. There was coy, shyness every ingredient in that love recipe which made them stand out as the ideal couple then.  Where did all that vanish and how did it all simply go away with the wind.

More to come!!!

Keep reading, love you loads

Rekha

 

 


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